Answers

I guess it's true...there really aren't that many people that read this. But that's okay, I will still write here (more for me than anything else).

It's time to answer the few questions that I did actually get, so here goes:

C.C. asked: If I could live anywhere, where would it be? Hmmm...there are lots of places I would like to visit, but I don't really know that there is one specific place I would like to live. My choice of living destinations changes periodically, based on the circumstances and what is going on in my life. Sometimes I would like to live in certain places so that I could be closer to certain family or friends. Sometimes I would like to move someplace where no one knows us so we can "start over." For some weird reason I have always wanted to live in Montana (but not in the winter time!). And sometimes, I like living here in Abilene...because it is familiar. So I guess I don't really have one specific place I have always wanted to live. (Nice answer, huh!)

Kelly asked: What names have we chosen for the baby? Nice try, Kelly! Did you really think I would answer that? You'll just have to wait like everyone else!

Ronnie asked: What makes me most nervous about being a parent? Where do I begin? The list of things that I am nervous or scared about is pretty endless right now. I'm nervous about actually delivering this baby (yikes!). I'm afraid I won't know how to take care of a child. I'm afraid of doing the wrong thing (which I know will happen many times!). I'm not real excited about diaper blow-outs and projectile spit-up. I'm afraid of disciplining, or not disciplining a child. I'm nervous about all the things I will be responsible for teaching a child. The list goes on and on. But honestly, I think the thing that is most pressing on my mind lately is the anxiety about loving a child the way a mom should. It's weird, but right now I don't feel like I love the baby enough, and I think maybe there's something wrong with me that I don't feel that love yet. Sometimes I think I should be more exciting about having a baby, but it just doesn't seem to have really hit me yet. I thought when I saw the first sonogram I would feel something different. Then I thought when I heard the heartbeat for the first time that would do it. But so far...nothing has really given me "the feelings" that I think I'm supposed to have. Don't get me wrong, I am happy about having a baby, I guess I just had all these expectations in my head about the way I thought it was supposed to feel, and so far those expectations haven't been met. Does that make any sense?

So, any more questions?